I decided not to write a personal contract in the beginning of the semester because I knew that I would not keep to the task of writing in my journal once a week. Perhaps I should have come up with a different contract for something more attainable for my lifestyle and work ethic. Despite the fact that Law & Society made me think critically each time I attended, I did not write my thoughts down. I need to learn to challenge myself.
Why don’t I write a journal once a week?
Maybe it has to do with carrots and sticks, or the lack thereof in this ongoing assignment. Since the journal was not due every week, but rather once or twice per semester, there was not much opportunity for reward or punishment. Every other professor I have had uses the carrot and stick method, wherein they ask for an assignment due at a certain time, and then gives us a grade depending on how good they think it is. The tough part about this assignment is that the responsibility is all my own. First, I have to promise to MYSELF, not the professor, that I will write in this journal once a week. Second, the subject matter in these journals consists of my own thoughts and reflections, which cannot exactly be “graded” by a professor.
I have found that the lack of carrots and sticks in this assignment has its pros and cons for me. A pro is that I was able to freely express my thoughts without the pressure of a grade lurking in the back of my mind. I find this to be the most important aspect of the journal and this method should be practiced more often. As Osho states in “Freedom,” “if individuals have freedom, are psychologically free, are spiritually free, then naturally the collective will be spiritually free” (xiii). This assignment gave me the freedom that Osho talks about in the previous quotation. If carrots and sticks were removed from society as a whole, imagine the freedom that each and every one of us could have.
The only con that I find with the carrot and stick-free method is due to my own personal faults. I did not push myself to write in this journal frequently enough. Although I retained a lot of information and gained critical thinking skills throughout the semester, reflecting on what I learned each week would have been an even more effective method of learning. In conclusion, I will “contract” myself to reflect on what I learn later in life in order to become a better thinker and learner.